I, just wanna stop feeling anything. Never had friends but I could live with that, but I just want someone to embrace, someone that feels something for me, even if doesn’t last. Better than 0 for the rest of my life. This situation is slowly killing me.
The only thing that gives me some relief is gaming… (I read the post of like a week ago here that several dudes met their partner thanks to a videogame and I felt even sadder, why that wasn’t me? I’ve been gaming for 30 years now).
Then I guess your options would be to look for events in the next bigger city, or consider moving.
Middle of nowhere and fighting loneliness don’t exactly go well together.
I literally can’t move, live with my mother and currently I don’t have a job and can’t drive a car (not like we have one anyways)