I, just wanna stop feeling anything. Never had friends but I could live with that, but I just want someone to embrace, someone that feels something for me, even if doesn’t last. Better than 0 for the rest of my life. This situation is slowly killing me.
The only thing that gives me some relief is gaming… (I read the post of like a week ago here that several dudes met their partner thanks to a videogame and I felt even sadder, why that wasn’t me? I’ve been gaming for 30 years now).
I feel you. I’m not living in the middle of nowhere, but I often feel lonely, and at the same time that I couldn’t spend enough time with a partner. That I have my hobbies, things I want to do, basically all of them at a desk. I don’t want to give these things up, and I don’t see how anyone would be fine with this, why anyone would want to live with me. And it just sounds so weird to only have a “sex partner”, that does not sound right, to me at least, but also why would anyone go into that with me?