My sadism and masochism have combined to make cutting myself an incredibly pleasurable experience. Not as good as doing it without someone else but it’s close. I started doing it in middle school, but it took years for me to figure out why. I never resonated with the ‘self harm’ resources being thrown at me. Everyone assumed I was depressed but rly I was just horny lmao. Anyone else? I’ve always felt like a bit of a weirdo for this one.
@starbright_asterism
I briefly dated a girl years ago who was VERY into this and I think it’s a legitimate kink that people can have and choose to explore. It is YOUR body, if you want to cut it, or have someone cut it that is your business and theirs.
But it’s not for me. I tried to do it with her and there WAS something hot about it in the moment, but afterwards I would break down crying in the shower, washing her blood off me. After the third time, I said “I can’t do this anymore.”