My sadism and masochism have combined to make cutting myself an incredibly pleasurable experience. Not as good as doing it without someone else but it’s close. I started doing it in middle school, but it took years for me to figure out why. I never resonated with the ‘self harm’ resources being thrown at me. Everyone assumed I was depressed but rly I was just horny lmao. Anyone else? I’ve always felt like a bit of a weirdo for this one.
Oh! And I forgot to mention this, but I also have a private fantasy about cutting my clit. I know I probably can’t without causing a real medical problem, but the idea of having my genitals cut while I’m hard is chef’s kiss
I definitely get off on cutting. My ex used to cut me up with a hunting knife during play. I remember one of my best orgasms was when she cut my tits right at the point of climax. It threw my orgasm into overdrive. It was amazing. I’ve always had an erotic fascination with being cut, even if I did have a self-harm streak as well.
I can definitely see the eroticism in it. I think it could be an (intentionally) arousing experience to harm myself or be harmed. One time I had an ingrown toenail and I just couldn’t get it out, so I snipped off a chunk of my toe flesh around it. It felt really good, like almost an orgasm. I also just really like the burning throbbing sensation of an injury, like a cut or an infection. Whenever I do these little operations on myself it also makes me feel like a mad scientist.
I briefly dated a girl years ago who was VERY into this and I think it’s a legitimate kink that people can have and choose to explore. It is YOUR body, if you want to cut it, or have someone cut it that is your business and theirs.
But it’s not for me. I tried to do it with her and there WAS something hot about it in the moment, but afterwards I would break down crying in the shower, washing her blood off me. After the third time, I said “I can’t do this anymore.”
