I, just wanna stop feeling anything. Never had friends but I could live with that, but I just want someone to embrace, someone that feels something for me, even if doesn’t last. Better than 0 for the rest of my life. This situation is slowly killing me.

The only thing that gives me some relief is gaming… (I read the post of like a week ago here that several dudes met their partner thanks to a videogame and I felt even sadder, why that wasn’t me? I’ve been gaming for 30 years now).

  • nikaaa@lemmy.world
    8·
    2 months ago

    I don’t really know.

    I’ve made some bad experiences in school when the general narrative was “men are all bad people” so I distanced myself from anyone. But that’s a stupid way of society.

    Men are not all bad people. You need to look at the person individually. Go out and have some self-confidence. Ask yourself: how would you see yourself? What if you encountered yourself, how would you react? I think answering these questions helps you to find a path in life that works better for you.

    Hope that I could help you.

    • Empty@leminal.spaceOP
      22·
      2 months ago

      I would fuck myself honestly. I don’t care about hobbies or being “interesting”. Why not the rest can be like that?

      • nikaaa@lemmy.world
        11·
        2 months ago

        honestly, from what i’ve heard, lots of gay men seem to think like that.

        • Empty@leminal.spaceOP
          14·
          2 months ago

          Oh FFS don’t call be gay just for saying that, I’m not fucking gay. I’m saying that if I were a girl I would have sex with me, ME. Only because, yeah I’m a loser, but I’m not a bad person and I don’t care about someone’s hobbies. If I could pick a girl using a magic spell the last thing I would care is if she’s “interesting” or “quirky”. For me if she’s isn’t social that’s a plus.

          • surewhynotlem@lemmy.world
            3·
            2 months ago

            I don’t care about someone’s hobbies.

            If you care about someone, you pay attention and show interest anyway. I don’t give two shits about Taylor Swift, but I know SO much about it because my wife loves it, and I play along.

            • Empty@leminal.spaceOP
              11·
              2 months ago

              Isn’t that lying? You just said it, you don’t give a shit. I’m being 100 percent honest with this “imaginary other person”… But I guess people don’t care about honesty these days. I guess asking someone loving and me loving her back just for “us” without the need of being interesting is impossible.

          • WhyJiffie@sh.itjust.works
            1·
            2 months ago

            I feel you. I’m not living in the middle of nowhere, but I often feel lonely, and at the same time that I couldn’t spend enough time with a partner. That I have my hobbies, things I want to do, basically all of them at a desk. I don’t want to give these things up, and I don’t see how anyone would be fine with this, why anyone would want to live with me. And it just sounds so weird to only have a “sex partner”, that does not sound right, to me at least, but also why would anyone go into that with me?